Tonight (14th May 2006) is a little different to me because I'm going to pass it in a stranger’s house. In fact, I have to start passing every single night here because I'm going to start my first job tomorrow. Feel a little uneasy but anyway, I do pay my rent here and that makes me her customer. This also means that I’m valuable and am always right too. The uneasy feeling is not much on anxiousness, but more to loneliness. Maybe because I’d been living with noisy and familiar people all the while and already got used to it.
My schooling life has officially ended after my final paper in University Malaya, which also means that I have to begin my working life soon. Apart from feeling a bit lonely in the stranger’s house, I can sense a lot of differences between this switch. The “I'm so sleepy, think I’ll just skip tomorrow morning lecture” is not applicable in working life. Moreover, “The lecturer is so boring, let’s chat” is not applicable to my boss. Likewise, “Do you have any tips for the test tomorrow?” is not applicable to my work performance too.
During my primary education, I didn’t care much about homework and being shooed out of the class or getting a D grade didn’t seem to have any effect on me. But I think I'm in deep trouble if I'm being kicked out from company’s meeting. This new working life might sound a bit cruel in comparison but I think it’s fair for it to happen to me now since I have been schooling for around 16 years.
The good thing about these 16 years of schooling is its clear and steady traveling path. We have been nagged and trained since we were small to study and work hard so that we can remain in school. The track is clear and organized and we just need to follow the bread crumbs until we reached where we think we could. The whole process can be ‘completed’ and after that, here I am, facing the endless possibility of my career. Career on another hand is different as it does not have an obvious path to be ‘completed’.
The stranger in my house is actually quite nice and friendly; hope all the strangers tomorrow in my working place are the same too.
